Wednesday, May 20, 2009

185

Body image is a funny thing, it can really consume a person's thoughts. That person being ME! My weight as of today is 185, my weight before I had Clay was 155 and my weight after college on a professional dance team was 140. I am 38 years old and don't want to spend the rest of my life worrying about what I weigh. It seems to be a constant struggle. Do most people worry about this all the time? It seems sad to me. The next phase has begun. I am going to participate in the USMC Mud Run (www.usmcmudrun.com) in September. It's 4.2 miles, 30 obstacles and I don't want to let my team down. So, I have a goal now. I want to be stronger. I want to be leaner and I want to beat this obsession once and for all. I have been saying that I want to be in the best shape of my life by age 40, but why can't it be by age 39. I make the rules and I control my actions. I started on Monday 5/18 and I will continue to document my journey.

A friend of mine had a daily calendar that covered the principles of "The Secret". He gave me the pages when he was done. I was going through them choosing the ones that spoke to me and throwing the others out. I found one that I have been repeating lately. Think good thoughts, speak good words and take good actions. Simple enough don't you think.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Evolve

Caution, Random Thoughts:
Lots going on with me mentally. Hard to put it all down on this blog. There are so many emotions going on inside of me. I think I am having my midlife crisis prematurely. Although I don't perceive it as a bad thing. I just feel like I am on a journey and sometimes I would like to stop and take a rest. However, something inside of me won't let me. I am constantly thinking and questioning and evolving. Here is a quote from Oprah that spoke to me, "The whole point of being alive is to evolve into the complete person your were intended to be."

Friday, May 15, 2009

Affirmations

Haven't felt much like writing lately....

Here is a thought for today.

Affirmations for Release:
I am willing to release my old patterns of fear and insecurity. Today, I embrace confidence. I am willing to release my old patterns of lack and limitations. Today, I embrace the universal abundance. I am willing to release my old patterns of weakness and dependency. Today, I embrace energy and strength. I am willing to release my old patterns of negativity. Today, I see the world filled with creative opportunities. My life is renewed through the cycle of release and acceptance.